Scattered Aurora

normally happens to me just after a new hair cut... then i get used to it... :P

okkaayyyy now why does this sound peculiarly familiar to me hmmmmmmmmmmm

:p

lol @ smacula...how deep and thought provoking!

@ mubi
familiar?? how?? *innocent luk*
:D
answer the questions counselor :P

@ sami
kitni dair baad? *another innocent luk*

(im becumin such an angel)

remember someone made fun of someone else a while back on this similar? *hint hint*

*bailna* irrelevent but wanted to add here :p

umm... takes me a few days... depends on how much time i spend in front of da mirror...

of course the words 'ooh i look good' do help me get settled :D

@mubi
lol maybe im asking this question for that someone else!! :D
*innocent angelic luk*

@sami
ur ability to completely miss the point has to-date never failed to amaze me... keep up the good work!
*sarcastic grin*
(just in case u miss the point...again :D)

forgive me for tryin to give a lighter spin on things and tryin to cheer you up in the process... !

on a serious note... know exactly what you mean... i have been in that phase... where u go through... there r two paths... one to keep staring and wonderin who u r... and the other to accept what you see as your very own... and be proud of it

both paths are not easy... but jus for da records... i chos da 2nd one!

@ sami
LOL! u took me seriously :D:D:D:D


on a serious note :D
wat u sed reminds me of sth bro asked me a few days back...he said "u know all taht shit the chinese and japanese chimps talk abt believing in urself and finding out who u are and all that...how do u do it...how do u find out who u are...do u sit in a dark room and try looking into ur soul or wat?" and i just told him i think u learn abt urself through the experiences u face in ur life...
i dun think anyone really completely knows who they are...do u? and i agree with u that we shud just move on and find out who we are as we live...no use wasting time wondering...
waisay i asked this question in a completely literal sense...wat if u dun recognize urself if u suddenly come upon a mirror (with or without a haricut)

the journey of self discovery is a difficult one... i hav never really sat down or done any of those practises... but guess one tends to learn... what i hav learnt is that people who claim they kno u r are often wrong... even the closest ones like ur parents.... its more of what they want u to b than who u r... !!!

and as far that feelin is concerned... well no not literally... not with a mirror... but yea at times i hav had that feelin... lookin down on my hands... thinkin... who am i... what hav i become... who am i... blabla... u kno!

i think its more of them knowing who u really are (a lil bit) in the start and then later as we proceed in that certain relationship, the other person slowly starts to superimpose an image of what they want u to be rather than who u are in their minds and when boom outta the blue u show them that thats not who u r come the deluges of disappointments and fights and supposed betrayals...

so in all ur years u havent ever once looked in the mirror and said to urself that "this is who i am??" in a completely baffled and flabbergasted tone and felt as if a stranger is standing there instead of u

@ rukh
i think that happens to me every day in the morning when i wake up to see a swollen nose, puffy eyes, hair all over the place and im like shiteee 'this is who i am' :p
but its the same in the afternoon and in the evening as well..isnt it:p
esp with my new haircut haina

@ lol...its an insult to haircuts :D
and u dint have one...u just hacked off half an inch of ur locks!!

from the front silly!! :p

lol...its still the same just a lil unmanageable now...

wat if i say im still not used to my face even after 20 years...is that weird??

this is a case of stage fright actually... do not worry... its quite normal !!

lol explain explain..

yes this happens to me sometimes
جب سو کر اٹھو اور نیند پوری نہ ہو تو
:D

please allow name/url comment facility on you blog.

hmmm let me c...

ohkkkk
i give up
how do u do that??


(soo much for my tech-savviness *disgusted luk*)

@ cutee
for that you need to go to your settings, then to one of the options that says about commenting.

what are you from stone age? coz you know i come from there :D

I can relate to that really well.
A few months ago, in the 4 semester, things got so busy that i didn't usually get time to look at myself in the mirror. People would say "Hassaan baray arsay baad nazar aye ho kahan hotay ho?"
and i'd reply "maine khud apne aap ko baray arsay baad daikha hai aj to aap to shukar karain"
and then when i'd look in the mirror tau i'd think "woah i dont look too bad these days" or "my famous hair is still styled the way it was a week ago thats a record" or "Damn i need to get a haircut this doesn't look like me"

moreover, like abdul Sami said, haircuts do that to you too. I always go to the barber hating my hair. I only go to the barber when i start hating my hair. Then, he does something and sprinkles some water before the haircut and i start loving my hair again but its always too late. I close my eyes SNIP SNIP and the next minute someone else's staring back at me in the mirror. I normally hate that someone else when i look at him for the first time, takes two three days to accept the reality.

Anyways, the phenomenon mentioned in the post recently happened to me, like two weeks ago, when i got my really really over grown goatee cut the length of my otherwise 2mm beard, when i looked in the mirror i was like wtf man? Actually i did that after years and i couldn't recognise my own chin. I thought "this guy has a short chin" i swear i saw it after such a long time i didn't think it was time. Took five six days to come to terms with it, now its growing back to the normal length but will take time.
I think once in a while you should meet the stranger within yourself, in whatever way, literal or figurative. Sometimes you get sick of meeting people who know you and you need a break. In such times, wet your hair, get them into a totally unusual style, go look in the mirror and smile at the stranger..

In conflict with yourself, I'd say...
Think that if you were to slice yourself in layers...what would happen?..you'd shatter the polygon, distort and mutilate it into five distinct triangles.... Each one facing the other, instead of looking away (in the case when they were one polygon).
At first they could see everything else except each other but this divide clearly threatening their belief that existence of another triangle was impossible and superficial...
Separation has induced confusion..loss of self identity..

Seeing oneself in separate phases "individually" can be paradoxical!

@ mubi
*gleeful smirk*
i went there shuru mai hi but agay ka mujhay smajha nahin aarha ke wahan kia keron....

@ mha
im still thinking of what to write to u in reply
:D

@cutee and mha
keh do jo bi dil mai hai... aaj wo bi mehfil mai hai :D !!!

@ sami...
that so sounds like a sher...kidhar se chaapa hai :P

@chaos
thats all true but even without teh separate phases and without all the haircuts and shaves and the distortions to ur face and shape...dun any of u feel awkward in ur body without any sane reason...

There is always a reason behind it...
I think u always have that feeling but in a latent state..just need that heave to make you realize it...

@ hassaan
lol wats wiv the haircuts and all...
and i dint really think abt it that way u know when u get sick of urself change the way u look and say hi to the stranger in the mirror...so thanx for teh new perspective :D

anyways tum tou mat hi bolo na...tumharay saath tou yeh roz ka chakr ho ga...subah uthay look in the mirror and scream :ami bhaoooo!"
get a haircut !!!

@ chaos
or maybe im the only one whoz had a mental plastic surgery or am completely crazy

Welcome to the world!!
That is the catch..you never know!!
:P

i think i finally made it legal for the mental hospies to kidnap me :D

@ mha
LOL!!!
@ sami
wah kia shair hai :p

@ chaos
oo i didnt read the comment :$

@ cutee
:S hmm go to the settings, the comments, then they will ask you about the url and blah blah
and i think thats to do with the cycle :p the stranger feeling and mirror :p

btw every mirror shows you a bit different, i hate that!!

lol mubi thats coz we dun have symmetrical faces... and i cant figure it out!!
btw i think sami minds it when i get on his case... :D

why dont you come online, msn *sarcastic look*

oooh gud idea...wait

Funny. I already have short hair.
Btw, after the current trend of getting all philosophical while blogging and blog-commenting i kind of decided and promised that for a small period of time i'll be all literal and thats it. No hidden meanings behind anything no reading between any lines no emotional comments just plain simple meaningless words describing meaningful or probably just everyday situations. I'm trying to simplify life these days, trying to limit the places where i invest my emotions in, or my deeper thoughts in...therefore this stranger in the mirror is just a different perception of me through my eyes, therefore, its just a hallucination. To everyone else, its always me, short or long hair.

mubi *rolls eyes*

@ mha
u need a haircut all the time...i dun believe ur description of short hair...i wish i cud get u and a pair of scissors and then snip snip SNIP!

@mubi
lol

lol...Sorry Hassaan!!
Parhai ke tension hai?

mainay kia mind kerna hai

lol... waisay da shair was from awaz ka gaana... :D

keh do jo bi dil mai hai
aaj wo bi mehfil mai hai

keh do jo bi kehna hai...
tujh bin nahi rehna hai :D

aah.. good ol days...

@umer
Haha. Parhai is as far from my thoughts as ummmm hasilpur, thats my village and thats very far away. Btw its not a village anymore its pretty developed. You know, they even have these cellular company franchises and everything its pretty cool. Though its really sandy sandy coz its near cholistan. But then thats the fun, when you come back you look into the mirror and you're all strangely tanned and your hair's all messed and decolourised...and there's a stranger in the mirror.

Years at debating taught me, LINK EVERYTHING BACK TO THE TOPIC! And hence this...

hahaha...A job well done!

And...you also reminded me of a certain creature ;)
Lmao

www.google.com

Wat creature?

he means "chuha"

Hassaan Im amazed...that u forgot!!
how can that be!!

Lol, i didn't forget, was just double checking.