Scattered Aurora

Have you ever looked into a mirror and seen a stranger in your reflection instead?

Have you ever had the feeling that if you were to suddenly come upon your reflection you wouldn't recognize yourself?

Have you ever been guilty of passing by a mirror and not recognizing yourself in it?

First of all, Eid Mubarik to all my readers and wishing u all a very very very happy and joyful Eid with your loved ones.
Omg! I still can't believe its gonna be eid tomorrow! I'm soo excited!! Admittedly this was not my first reaction when I got the news that tmr was eid at 11 p.m! It was to my flaming, shaming embarrassment, a loud heartfelt thrice repeated "Shit" (make it SHIT)! I didn't want it to be Eid tomorrow! I wanted it to be on thursday. But as i can't do anything about the senile minds of three wise men in our Rout-e-Hilal committee, who apparently have the vision to see the moon when its not there and not see it when it actually is, so i just have to be happy with what I've got and thats Eid tomorrow. Actually the shock's wearing off now and I'm kinda getting the warm, happy, fluttery, buttery feeling in my tummy that I've always associated with Eid! It's building up even as I'm writing this!
Omg! It's Eid tmr!!! I finally get to wear my new clothes and matching bangles and hot stilletos and awesome pazebs and strut around the house dressed like a model, basking in the admiration in the eyes of my admirers (read parents and grandparents). I am soo not gonna be able to sleep a wink tonight!!:D Yay! its EID!!
Btw I'm still not thrugh with my complaining but that's gonna come later on soooo...
When I actually visualized this post in my mind I was gonna right all about the ronaq of Eid and Chandraat in Lahore but coz of the high alert in our family (my dad thinks that I'm on all the terrorist organizations hitlist *rolls eyes*) so we can't go on our regular jaunt with cousins to Liberty and other places on chand raat. :( As it goes I couldn't even enjoy Chand Raat in my own market which is not too far from liberty in the ronaq stakes. And here I am writing a post on Chand raat rather than being out enjoying it and all because of those dumb nitwits who can see the moon on their whim!
Anyhow, I just love chand raat! I love to window shop on Chand raat! I love to look at all those colourful and varied designs of chooriyan and jewellery even though i don't get the urge to buy them but i can just go on looking at them for hours simply! They just enchant me with their clinking musical sounds and their flashing colours and beautiful designs. These pics are the ones i took a few days back when in Liberty shopping.
In case you are wondering, these are my mehndi lagewe hands...and yes I'm typing out this post with the dry mehndi still clinging to my hands! Thanks to our ever alert maulvis I had to rush out to get my mehndi done at 12 at night. Still thats all the fun of chand raat; waking mom from a deep deep sleep, getting scolded for not doing it earlier (though how im supposed to know the the mindless decisions these leaders take beforehand escapes me) and so on and so forth. Anyways I love mehndi when its still clinging to my hands rather than the color it leaves even when its pretty dark! and i can just go on sniffing mehndi forever! it has a heavenly smell!
On a more serious note, while coming back home I just saw a little urchin maybe 8 or 9 years old, sleeping while sitting against a pillar, his arms and legs thrust out awkwardly and ragged clothing covering his thin physique. His head was actually unsupported and lolling around in the air! he made such a pathetic sight, i still can't stop my eyes from watering when i picture him. I felt really sorry for him and helpless too knowing i could do nothing for him and grateful to God for a family and a home where I know I am loved and wanted despite anything! I read somewhere that home is a place where they have to let you in even if they don't like you and right now I feel really really grateful to my family to not only giving me a home but actually wanting me in it as well! I hated to wake him up but I wanted him to have Eidi in a little style as well. We all crib about so many silly things all the time, but we don't really understand how lucky we are. and from time to time God has to show us what we really have and try to make us thankful for all that but we seldom feel the thanks for more than a few days at the most then its back to all the whining and cribbing and complaining. My friends are witnesses to my complaints during the last week or so about my tailor ruining my clothes and my dyer ruining my duppatta and the ensuing inevitable fights i had and all my bitter complaints and feeling sorry for myself and all. So this sign was long due from God to tell me what exactly i was doing. It took me a sight of a pathetic little boy who should be happy about Eidand should take Eidi as his due but instead had tears in his eyes when I gave him some. It made me realize just how selfish i really am and how self-obsessed i have become. I hope that this Eid a little of our Eidi will help give someone a smile...

I love Charlie Chaplin...simply adore him...his acts can give me fits even though they can be very silly...and i love watching him with my mother who earlier, with a very baffled look, asked me, "Yeh banda kya ker raha hai? Yeh paagal tou nahin hai?" Lol! Love you mom!
Just wanted to share this clip with you...Enjoy :)

I always take my rings off in class whenever i am bored and just play with them, making weird shapes or planting them strategically on top of one another just to ease my boredom. Today, though a certain shape took up a certain meaning or maybe my mind just put a different perspective on it. So out of my five rings i made a friends star. These five rings represent me and my four friends in college; Ami, Mubi, Zd, Hina & me. We are all quite different from each other and sometimes i think we r the weirdest group in the college but we still stick together. I'm not good at writing all this cheesy stuff but sometimes we all have to do things that we arnt good at so here goes.
Guys i know we fight like on the smallest of issues and blow it out of proportion and take it to a completely different level. I know that we say the harshest of things to each other and really hurt each other really really bad and I know at those times we even feel like why the hell are we still friends coz its the same thing that happens over and over again each time we fight. But yar i also know that we still make up and we still are together no matter what. We still have more memories of laughter and fun than of fights. We may be complete opposites but we still complement each other. And its only being together that we complete the star of our friendship.
So, all i wanna say to u guys is that lets just be together no matter what.
My messages to my friends:
Mubi:
We fight but we still make up and whatever we say when we r angry u know we don't mean it!
Ami:
Ohk ohk i'm a drama queen! happy now ? :D
Zd:
Ur a lota!
Hina:
Miss u man!



oh and btw guys hanging up is not an option. We dun never ever ever hang up on friends , it just makes matters worse!

P.S. this is my allergy writing not me :D

Its a quarter to two and I'm still sitting in front of the pc, making a damned inventory of drugs which i bet aren't even actually there. And I've no idea why i'm blogging even. maybe I'm taking a break from all those F.I.Rz and serial numbers and Heroin and Charas samples and those broken watches and god knows what! ohk what shall i write about...hmmm...
Great now i don't even have anything to write about! How stupid is that! I want to blog now and i dun have anything to blog about! ughhh!!! I'm asking my other "Daddy" but hez just telling me to go to sleep coz its past my bedtime :( Now hes telling me not to be stubborn! That does it! this post is dedicated to my other "Daddy" who breaks his promises and doesn't even tell me any bedtime stories now! and he doesn't even bring anything for me from his trips :( and he isn't even talking to me anymore :D Mission Accomplished!!YaY! I'm evil again!!
I dun think i can get anymore lamer than this!! why am i even blogging this i don't know. i know i shud delete this but i somehow cant oh man am really desperate for some sleep now!!

Characters: Ami, Mubi, Rukh...
Setting: Strolling to our next class, my friends finally privileged me with their observations on what i was wearing...
(FYI: It's a very cute pair of pants with coloured butterflies and sequences on the legs which i teamed with a white and pink kameez and a tye n dyed duppatta...)

Ami:"What are you wearing?"
Mubi:"Yeh Mahnoor ki hai na??!!" (She passed the same comments on my rings earlier as well..:S)
Rukh:"Ji nai...Yeh meri hain!"
Ami:"Why are u wearing these??"
Mubi:"Nightsuit lag raha hai"
Ami:"It looks as if rukh cudn't find a white shalwar and she made do with this!"
Mubi::*with a really disgusted look*
Rukh:" They are cute and they don't look bad!"
Ami:*rolls eyes* "Let's go"
Mubi:"They are not!"
Ami:"They are gay pyjamaz!!"
Rukh:"Tou mai ky keron?"
Mubi:"Take them offf!!!"
Ami:"Mubi ur such a lesbian!"
rukh looking abashed follows silently...Ami starts off on her mubi-is-a-lesbian stream...
Ami:"Stay away from me lesbo!!"
Mubi:"YAY! I am a lesbian!"
Rukh:"Wats with the gay and lesbian stuff guys?!"
Ami:"She told you to take your pants off!!! ewww...how lesbo is that?!!"
Rukh:*lol* "Why are u both into homosexuality that much??!!"
AMI:*lol*
Mubi:"ewwwwwwwwwwww!!! I am not a homosexual!!!"
Rukh:"ur a lesbian but not a homo??!! how can u be a lesbian and not a homo??"
Ami:"Shes a self-proclaimed lesbian just like shes a self-proclaimed loser!"
Mubi:"u guys have a sick mind!"
Ami:"and who was talking abt taking rukh's gay pants off?!" ;p
Rukh:"They are not!! they are cutee!"
Mubi :"I am a lesbian but i havent really quite come out of the closet yet"
Ami:"you only come out of the closet when ur dad catches u!...you are out of the closet that is why u r a lesbian"
Later
Mubi:"Rukh u moonwalk!"
Ami: *gives a demo*
Rukh:"I don't...i walk fine!!"
Mubi:"that girl walks weird"
Ami:"why do u check out girls??"
Rukh:"Stop checking out girls!"
Mubi:"I check out straight guys as well"
Ami:"the last guy u checked out was rafa nadal n he is already gay!!"
Rukh:*lmao*
Mubi:"ohk lemme think...the last time i checked out a guy was....!!" *gives us a strange look* "the last time it was also girls!!! SHITT!! Ok thats it u two dont come to my blog anymore!!"

and I've thankfully forgotten what the rest of the convo was!! :(

As everyone's been putting up pics of clouds my gallery wanted an exhibition as well...so here are some of my fav pics on the theme of cloud fever thats getting contagious on the blog zone... the first three dedicated to Mubi (see the "M") Happy viewing :D

"ONE of the objections raised against the Islamic Law of divorce or Talaq is that in empowering man to divorce, Islam has been harsh and unjust to the woman. While pondering over the issue, three alternative answers come to the query: who should be given the right to divorce? The first option is that both should have this right. The second is that the husband should be so empowered. And the third option could be that the wife should have this right.

In the first instance, if both have the right to divorce, the multiplicity of divorces shall make family life uncertain and insecure. In the case of both exercising this right there will obviously be a much larger number of "casualties" than with only one armed with this weapon to sever relations.

The second option is that adopted by Islam, which has vested this power in man for the reason that he enjoys a little more dignified position in the family. He is the supervisor of the family, maintainer of the wife and with that bears the heavy burden of children's upkeep, education and upbringing.

Therefore, it is he who should decide whether it is possible to bear the burden of these responsibilities in collaboration with the wife or not? In the Qur'anic terminology "in his hands has been placed the power to tie the marriage knot (contract) or untie it." It would be harsh and unjust to compel him to go on maintaining a woman as the queen of the mini-realm, home, whom he does not like or whose cooperation has been denied to him.

Taking the third option in which the wife will have the right to divorce, it is apparent that in this event the abuse of the right cannot be eliminated. In according the right to the wife, there are some evils associated with it also:

· It would be grave injustice to man to make him bear all the responsibilities toward the woman (dower, gifts, maintenance and the like) and to grant the right to divorce to the woman.

· Divorce is damaging to man entirely, whereas the woman remains immune from any harm. If the right is granted to her, a morally irresponsible wife, whenever she chooses, she shall divorce the husband, and handing over children to him, she will take leave of him with the "booty" of her dower and jewelery and gifts in full triumph, and at the first chance coming her way, she will marry another man getting fresh dower and other privileges.

· It is an obvious fact that woman is much more sentimental than man and can at any time, under the impulse of the moment, sever relations with man. That will go a long way in increasing the rate of divorce under the normal conditions, thus confronting the society with a new crisis.

The way Islam shapes the mind and temperament of man and educates and trains him, divorce can hardly find room in his life and the lurking fear that merely for sexual enjoyment and gratification of abnormal lust he will go on divorcing women most carelessly is only a remote possibility.

– The author of this piece is currently President of India's Jamaat-e-Islami, and is an eminent theologian and scholar of Islamic jurisprudence."

This is the content of a forward mail which i recently received and i decided to share it with you. I agree with most of what it says, even with the second option that a man should have the right to divorce, which being a woman might be slightly disappointing in me for the other much "liberated"version of my species. The point which actually provoked my reaction was when the author is giving his slightly biased opinions as valid reasons as to why men should have the right. Out of all the opinions, he shares with us about the evils associated with handing over the right to divorce to women, the only legitimate one is the last one, where he states that women being the more emotional of the two would base her judgments on sentimentality rather than rationality. The earlier two reasons, I have to say, show a narrow-minded being behind a facade of empowering knowledge and education.
I'll first talk about the second point which i believe is wrong in both theory and application. He says that "Divorce is damaging to man entirely, whereas the woman remains immune from any harm. If the right is granted to her, a morally irresponsible wife, whenever she chooses, she shall divorce the husband, and handing over children to him, she will take leave of him with the "booty" of her dower and jewelery and gifts in full triumph, and at the first chance coming her way, she will marry another man getting fresh dower and other privileges." The very first statement shows how prejudiced he is against women. In his third opinion he states that it is an obvious fact that women are more sentimental than men. This being so, I wonder how he came upon his theory of divorce being "entirely damaging to a man whereas the women remains immune from harm".Then he goes on to paint a coal-black picture of the actions of a woman nicknaming her "a morally irresponsible wife" who shall divorce the husband, take her dowry, dump the children with him and marry another man for fresher privileges. I should like to ask him what are his biased views on the better-half of our species "the morally responsible wife". I would also like to point out that Allah has given women the right to ask for a divorce known as khula, in which case, the woman returns her mehr and asks for a divorce on the basis of valid reasons. In other words, a wife buys the right of khula by returning the mehr.
My arguments on his first opinion which states that "It would be grave injustice to man to make him bear all the responsibilities toward the woman (dower, gifts, maintenance and the like) and to grant the right to divorce to the woman", will be based on a social viewpoint. Considering that the author comes from a country where the tradition of dowry is even worse than here in Pakistan, it is hypocritical for him to state that it would be a "grave injustice" to a man when he doesn't even give a dowry to a woman in our society. It is the woman and her parents who have to go through the torture of greedy in-laws demanding a hefty dowry in return for the woman to live with her husband while the husband gets away with paying a measly mehr.
By giving all these arguments I'm not saying that it is wrong for a man to have the right to divorce because it is clearly not the case. Allah, although has given men the right to have the final word, but has also given women the right to seperate and ask for a divorce. The conditions placed on either are the same: there has to be a valid and rightful reason before any one of the two seeks independence from the other.